Artistic creation, sports, dance, teaching, counseling — mastery in any field of endeavor implies the thinking mind is either no longer involved at all or at least is taking second place. A power and intelligence greater than you and yet one with you in essence takes over. There is no decision-making process anymore.
– Eckhart Tolle, Stillness Speaks
From: Fundamentals Student (cohort 6) Subject: I talk a lot of $#!^
I put my finger on it today while I was driving home from the park -- I talk a lot of $#!^ ... and I think it's the reason why I sometimes feel weird/icky/embarrassed after conversations.
As a people pleaser and peacekeeper, I will search hardcore for common ground. So much so, that I will ride the momentum of my own words until I'm straight-up lying. This is what happens when I speak from one sentence to the next, forming words that are completely disconnected from my emotions. I have an audience and now I'm going to throw everything I have at them until something sticks -- even if I don't agree with half of the $#!^ I'm saying.
It's like I'm a happy little astronaut exploring space, securely fastened to my mothership... I venture out a little to enjoy the scenery and all the pretty moon rocks. Then I realize my space suit detached from the mothership 3 lightyears ago and I'm out here just free-floating through the galaxy. Well, $#!^. How did I get so far away?
Now, all that changes when I breathe. Breathing keeps me connected to my mothership, my core. The warm place in my chest where all my feelings live. In my breath, I feel the sentence that was forming on the tip of my tongue dissipate and something new emerges, rising from my core... a pure and unaltered thought. An original me thought.
I won't talk $#!^ to find a fake connection, and I won't sacrifice my authenticity for approval.